For the past couple of weeks, God decided to step up the pace of the things He likes to throw at me. The Once-a-Week became Once-a-Day, and today, it because Once-an-Hour. Oh well.
I felt burdened - quite unfairly. A lot had to do with compensating for another's inability to accept responsibility or be accountable for anything - something which I hope to rectify in the near future. Perhaps once the dust settles, I can laugh about it all, but in the meanwhile, I'll take what I need to take.
Near the breaking point, I sms-ed a friend who promptly replied to my "Hmmm". We went straight to the point and after about an hour of my rambling (I insisted that I be listened to), we reached the conclusion - that thoughts of good things in the future gets us over the pains of the present.
The present was not so painful after all - especially after I bit of chewable chunks and delegated things that I didn't need to do myself. Compartmentalising my problems helped me focus my anger in the 'right' direction - and not just to those within my vicinity.
And then there are the things I see that invoke a range of emotions in me. Well, if I'm going to feel something for everything I see, I'm going to be one emotionally exhausted person. I decided that certain feelings can be left to be felt another day.
Another day - that's the future isn't it? My chunks of future will be pretty full until Thursday evening. Till then, maybe I'll learn to like Maggi Mee...
*falls over from exhaustion*
G'nite.
hang in there najlet, and this too shall come to pass. the light will be there at the end of the tunnel.
Posted by: pickyin at 2004年05月18日 00:14Ooo er. This sounds sticky. Well, if you ever need a person to rant to, or summat. You know where to buzz.
My future is also in chunks, bloody red ones.
Posted by: Ash.ox at 2004年05月18日 00:22you know what you really need?
more of that japanese chocolate stuff.
:)
oh, and a hug.
((hug))
Posted by: racheal at 2004年05月18日 01:58Take it like sailing, sometimes the wind blow in your favour so full speed ahead. Sometimes it blew against you and there is nothing much you can do except to steer the ship to stay on course. And when there is no wind it's maggi time.
Cheer up girl!
Hang in there sis! everything happens for a reason...remember, we're always there if you need us..(or our stock of maggi mee)
Posted by: WaAzrolAeisyahAdam at 2004年05月18日 10:53hotchili60: A sailboat can go anywhere with wind blowing in any direction. You just need wind.
Posted by: rhomer at 2004年05月18日 12:10a wise woman said:
"you have to laugh at yourself, you'd cry your eyes out if you didn't".
Hope today was better for you. Hang in there!
i was in trial today. my client is a hairdresser whose ex-husband/skunk is trying to claim a share of her business on grounds that he allegedly contributed (he was a maths teacher). Before even hearing her story, the judge is telling us "don't waste your time convincing me otherwise, i believe him in toto. I won't allow this man to be deprived of a share".
And all this while we're in the midst of cross examining the skunk.
Short of puking, i just had to laugh. My client puked, tho.
It sucks being surrounded by people who got to their positions of power/responsibility solely by virtue of some freaky suspension of logic and reason.
oops...i seem to have ridden the coat-tails of your rant with my own...
i truly feel for you. *pat pat*
Naj, WaAzrolAeisyahAdam is right, everything happens for a reason. I also believe that we are in there for a reason. Allah works in mysterious ways, for one thing I always tell myself that there is always a lesson that he wishes me to learn from this.
Take life in small manageable bites. It tastes better that way.
Be well ... take care.
Posted by: Gabriel at 2004年05月18日 17:11