It seems that we sell ourselves short all too often. Eventhough we try to shut out the negative things the people we care about say or do, these little insignificant things somehow manage to etch their way into how we see ourselves.
Take for example, a fateful dinner, where much important matters need discussing. You wouldn't leave your phone handy if that dinner meant losing millions, you'd mute it or even turn it off. Why should the rule be any different when it comes to someone you care about, especially when there is much important matters to be discussed?
Then there are the careless comments, the ones that reflect how some people truly feel about something you were honest about. The ones where the hurt shows in the careless statements, or even how they put you on hold while they sort out their own little business of the day.
No, this has nothing to do with anything that happened in the past 24 hours, but an awakening of sorts for me - by watching what people do, rather than what they say. Knowing what I'm worth, rather than how others value (or don't value) me, helps exorcise the demon that's been plaguing my nights and perhaps, clearing my clouded conscience once and for all.
Posted by Najah Nasseri at 2004年01月15日 23:02 | TrackBackNajah, this is totally off topic, but can you tell me which digicam do u use (brand, model)? Am planning to buy one and I see that yours capture good images (I knowlah the person handling the camera is important too! :-D )
Posted by: Iza at 2004年01月16日 09:51Iza,
Depending on the photo, in chronological order (earliest first):
Sony DSC707
Canon EOS10D
Minolta Dimage
The first 2 are semi-professional and professional respectively, and comes with the expected price tag. The Minolta is pretty good for casual shooting, and it's small, although I'd recommend the new small Canon (forgot the model name).
Posted by: Najah at 2004年01月16日 09:54Don't let Naj take pictures of you. Trust me. She's better with food.
:)
Posted by: meesh at 2004年01月16日 10:15Iza,
for low budget and good quality, go for the latest Canon Powershot series. The cheapest is the A300 and the latest is A80. It'll get you decent pics for sure!
;-)
Posted by: inbam at 2004年01月18日 00:58All this camera talk by chance was instigated by the "watching" comment by Najah? :-)
Hey, Najah, you're right. Some people are unable to fix their attention on you, or on what you're saying, no matter how urgently you need them to focus. But it's their problem, not yours. The tricky bit is to not let their wandering minds affect you or belittle you or your message. But it's hard when the other is someone you care about.
Posted by: Zsarina at 2004年01月20日 13:47