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"One night, I dreamt I was walking along the beach with the Lord. Scenes from my life flashed across the sky.

In each, I noticed footprints in the sand. Sometimes, there were 2 sets of footprints; other times there were only one.

During the low periods of my life, I could see only one set of footprints, so I said, "You promised me, Lord, that you would walk with me always. Why, when I have needed you the most, have you not been there for me?"

The Lord replied, "The times when you have seen only one set of footprints, my child, is when I carried you."

[Thanks Kuza. This summarised exactly how I felt last night...]

I think my last post freaked out a lot of people. Honestly, it freaked me out as well. But thank God that my eyes were open enough to see what I have, rather than what I have not.

In my despair, I continued with my day, because that was all I knew I could do. As I sat down to do my work in a cafe yesterday evening, I bumped into Arzu (of the Arzu scarf shop in KLCC). She recently opened a new shop in Berjaya Mall. We chatted a bit and she went on to have her coffee and I went on to do my work. Ten minutes later, I was delivered a free mug of latte, compliments of a very nice entreneurial woman.

Half an hour later, I was greeted by a colleague, who made me remember that I have expertise that people value. That I am more than the sum of my emotions, that I am a professional.

Later in the evening, I was shown what kindness was by a cab driver. An old Chinese 'uncle' dispensed advice to myself and another lady on personal safety and went out of his way to get us home.

Like Meesh said, nothing anyone here can say will do, but the sum of those words reminded me that there was a tomorrow to look forward to. Perhaps it was the words, perhaps it was prayer, perhaps it was all the friends I have who showed me how much they loved me - I know I'll be okay...

Thank you to all my friends (far, near, flesh and virtual) who came out to be there for me. Your words and effort, no matter how 'small', really made my day.

(What doesn't kill you only makes you stronger eh?)

Posted by Najah Nasseri at 2003年12月05日 14:42 | TrackBack