Shackled

I've never had a turning-of-age quite like this one. It's been a whole month since I turned 28 and things are still turning and tumbling all over me. It's exasperating - in my mind, I'm running back and forth my thoughts and aspirations at 23 and slowly, I've convinced myself that I took at least 2 wrong turns somewhere.

Gabe would say that there is no point in looking back, only forward. But part of looking forward is looking back and remembering where you should be heading. Raimy would say that it's a normal pre-30s phase that one goes through - after which life takes off in a fabulous way.

It's comforting to know that I'm not the only one struggling with my place in life. I found this on Jikon's site today (interesting that astrology can sound so profound):

"Before you can go up, you must first go down. Every builder knows this. If you are hoping to make a tall, strong structure you had best create deep sturdy foundations. Yet when you are hoping to take shelter in some commanding edifice but find yourself peering down into a hopeful hole in the ground, it can be hard to remember that this is the natural order of things. It is because of what you have been through that you can now do what you are about to do. Don’t fear the future and don’t question the position in which you currently find yourself. Just prepare to reap a much-deserved reward."

Words that could have come from an old friend.